So unworthy

So if you came to our women's Monday night fellowship a few months back you may remember that I spoke concerning ministering to others. At the time someone had come to me letting me know that an old acquaintance had recently been sentence to prison and will be there for 10 or so years. I was heart broken. Then I was asked if I would like to converse back and forth with them. I talked to my husband who was at first a little leery of the idea that a convicted felon would have access to our address. Though I felt God tell me that I needed to write to this man, I was not going to disobey my husband and go behind his back. I knew God would make a way. (This is where I was when I brought it before our fellowship ladies). Two weeks later my husband said i could write him but that I needed to correspond back and forth to his shop - not our home. I talked about it further with my husband and I knew my husband was saying yes with his mouth but still shouting NONO in his heart. So I chose not to write to my friend (whom I have not talked or heard of in over 10 yrs) Last week, our mutual friend (friend of myself and the man in prison) asked if I had written to my prison friend. I said no and gave her the reasoning. She said that they now have it set up for email. It is a secure email set up for the prison. There is no exchange of address's. (YAY GOD!) So I went back and asked my husband if I could begin emailing him. My husband was much more open to the idea. So i gave our mutual friend my email to pass on to my prison friend. Within two days I received a request from my prison friend to be email friends. So thus it begins. I received the request. Now it was in my court to accept, set up my email through the prison security email system and write the first correspondence between us. I had no clue how to begin. I mean, "Hey you - haven't heard from you in 13 yrs so what have you been up to... oh yeah -never mind - you are in prison - apparently you've been a little naughty" sounded not right.... So I just shared what I had been up to in the past 10 or so years... I did share a little of my husbands testimony of not being raised in a Christian home and how he hadn't come to Christ until after he turned 19.... I didn't want to shove "Christianity" down his throat - and yet I wanted to let him know from the beginning how Christ can change lives. He responded back to my email two days later explaining to me how prison life was. He said he was sorry for his poor choices and that one day he prays that he can prove to society that he can function in that society. So this morning I wrote in response to that. I told him that every choice we make has consequences - but we are not defined by our choices - we are defined by who God tells us we are. I went a little deeper in that discussion but only brimmed the surface in what I hope will be a long correspondence between us. I feel this will be a spiritual warfare for him. Please pray with me as we write back and forth that God will give me the wisdom to share with him what he needs to hear at the time he needs to hear it!